I’m the worst mother in the world

OK, so I’m probably not THE WORST mother in the world, but right now I’m feeling like I’m pretty high up on the list.

I put Noah and Zoe on a plane to Florida this morning. They were in good hands with my cousin Shannon and her son Michael, but they WERE NOT WITH ME. What kind of a mom puts her 2 1/2-year-old and her almost 2-year-old on a plane without her? A BAD ONE.

My parents have a condo in Florida that they rent out most of the year. My mom and Tom went down there at the beginning of the month. Tom stayed two weeks and came home, but my mom decided to stay longer. We also have family there, so my mom became convinced that it would be a good idea for me and the kids to come visit. Christian is under a deadline at work and can’t get away, so I told my mom that there was no way I could fly down with three kids under three. Instead of giving up, she recruited my cousin Shannon to help. I still said no, but she persisted. Then my aunt and uncle called too, saying how much they wanted to see the kids, and I finally gave in.

We have Colin’s court hearing on Tuesday to finalize his adoption, so he and I could not leave today. We are flying down on Wednesday. Shannon swore she would be OK on the plane with her son Michael (4 1/2), Noah, and Zoe. I told her she was crazy and gave her plenty of opportunities to back out (including in a text message at 11 o’clock last night), but she remained steadfast. We will all fly back together next Sunday.

Shannon’s mother-in-law works for Homeland Security, so she was able to go through airport security with them, as well as escort them on the plane. The airlines also gave my mom a gate pass, so she was able to meet them as soon as they got off the plane in Florida. They have only been there for five hours, and I’ve been on the phone with my mom four times already. She assures me that they are fine. Shannon said there was only one melt down on the plane when Noah realized that I had packed his orange sippy cup instead of his Thomas the Train cup. She said that Zoe had fun playing with Play-Doh, and promises that she didn’t eat any (though this IS Zoe we are talking about, so I’m not completely covinced).

Of course they did not get their afternoon nap (because Grandmas are suckers and actually listen to toddlers when they say they don’t want to sleep), and it’s driving me crazy knowing they are off of their schedule, but I know they are in good hands. I keep telling myself that they will be fine, and it’s only going to be three days before I see them, but I am FREAKING OUT and feeling incredibly guilty.


6 thoughts on “I’m the worst mother in the world

  1. It is very important for children to see their grandparents. A couple of extra days with Grandma is going to mean the world to both your mom and your children. You are NOT a bad mother, you are a good mother. You are being selfless so that you children can see their loving grandmother.

  2. Bless your heart. The first major trip away from home/mommy is so hard (on the mom). This hardly makes you a bad mom. I happen to know for a fact that you cannot possibly be the WORST mother in the world because I currently hold that title (or at least that’s what one of my sons would like me to believe right now)- do you want to fight me for it?

  3. Ha ha! You sound just like me! Well, just like I would sound if I ever sent my kids off for three days without me, but I have never done it. Because I couldn’t do it! Well, and because there just aren’t many places for me to send them off to, but, you know . . . Hang in there.

  4. At least you can see to write about it. The first time I left my boys with my parents (for a whole week) I cried for most of the first day. Torture.

    Chances are the kids will hardly notice you’re not there & will be pleasantly surprised when you arrive on Wed. You’re not the worst mother by any means & you’ll be on your way to be with them before you know it.

  5. You are a great mother for fostering a strong relationship between your kids and their grandparents. I cannot imagine sending them at that age, but I do understand think it is great that your cousin was willing to do it for you.

  6. You are SO not the worst mom in the world! I do think your cousin is the craziest person in the world, though. I get anxious about flying with Mattix alone. One kid. One. Three? Under five? She’s a brave, brave woman! Anyway, you’re a good mom and the kids will enjoy this time with their extended family. Give yourself a break, k?!

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